Welcome to my dark side

Welcome to my dark side 

Welcome to your dark side training... First of all what is this "dark side" It's somewhat a parasite. It cant survive without a host, and we humans are the host. It will not survive if you are so innocent and naive. We humans developed this gothic feeling around at the age of 8, if you are that dark, but i developed this feeling at 2 -*-. See my mom left me, and my dad is one of the person who you dont wanna be with, but it turns out that what he done to me, created my dark side. This dark feeling makes you feel stranded, the best you can do is to be nice to it and let it eat you from the inside out. You cant tame it, you cant be friend with it, it's  a feeling and you would understand everything after only you are "dead". The feeling makes you feel so dark, you wanna be alone, you wanna hurt yourself, or someone, and kill. Let's put it this way, there's 3 levels of  this feeling. The first level, happened when you just made contact with it. You felt pressured, when someone is making fun of you, but still you ignored them. Most people chose to ignore it, what happen next after you ignore it ? You face the 2nd level. Now, the second level will make you feel hopeless and useless. You will feel like you are nothing but a f__king piece of crap in this cruel world. You chose to ignore it because you dont have anyone else to talk to, not even your family, or your friend. You hate everyone so much that you cry almost in every single night. You feel so much pressured that you will feel like you just wanna simply "die" or "vanish". You will hurt yourself, for examples attempt to suicide, or cut yourself with a razor knife, or paper cutter. Now you are a very dark person, you may decide who is your friend, comrades, or enemy. You can only express your feeling through tears, because tears are so valuable, not even the "naive" should even say the word cry, because they dont know what is the word "pain", "agony", "torture". The alternative of expressing the feeling is through songs, like dark gothic or gothic metal. You continue to keep the feeling to yourself that you will move to the 3rd level. I'm only at two and a half, because if i am 3, i would be dead and you guys would be partying at my funeral, so keep waiting. The 3rd level, you felt pain and pressured that you commit a suicide, and you dont even care if you're going to hell or not. You hate god so much for putting you in this position and that you commit a suicide to clear out your mind and when you are a wraith, you will understand the secret of Yggdrassil, the world tree, AKA the tree of eternity, and every emotion. At level two and a half, it's very different and weird, you feel like your "inner demon" has just woken up from it's slumber, you imagine you have the third red eye, and your inner demon now take control of you. When you cry, there is a chance that if your dark side, pity you for being who you are then maybe it will bloom into something you admire or wanted to have in the darkness. In my case, an older sister -*-, good luck seeking your inner demon, my brothers and sisters. See you after death.